My turn again!

Hey gals
I once again have the Pants in my posession & boy am I excited. My babysitter told me there was a Fed Ex package on the step on Wed & I had no clue what it could be & then voila I saw the CO return address & I got all giddy! Looking forward to a month filled with adventure. Speaking of adventure, my cousin & I went to Atlantic City for a local girls getaway...ate a fabulous dinner at Bobby Flay's steak house, headed into the casino & proceeded to win $187 at the craps table. Hmm & I wasn't even wearing the Pants. You know what we always say ...just having the pants in our posession is good luck in itself. The next morning we woke up, went to the gym & then spent the entire day at the spa-massage, facial, sauna, hot tub....AHH the beauty of relaxation (did I mention that I played hooky from work? shh don't tell my boss).
I have been thinking about all of you talking about taking care of ourselves when sometimes we spend all of our time taking care of others. I tell you that it felt so nice to get away from reality for a minute & indulge in pure relaxation. Must do this more often because it certainly is rejuvenating.

I must apologize to all of you for not keeping in touch the past month or so. I have been thinking of you often, but somehow the time is getting away from me. House projects still abound, but we absolutely love it here! Brian's anxiety is under control & he is so happy to be working from home now too. All is good in the Wynn household so we are thankful for that.

I will chat with you all later-and will update on my month of Luck.

Adios for now

Come Down to Earth, Shelby!

Hi everyone!

Thanks for coming clean, Liz. I too have not been great about writing this month and I hope to get better as thing "calm" down here...is that possible with two young kids, a full time job, and a BF (as Aiden now refers to Scott). And yes...the pants were sent to Miss!
So how am I, you might ask??? My head is spinning a bit, I must admit. So much change. I know it is all good and that eventually I will figure out how to keep so many balls in the air. I really feel happy quite a bit. Scott has been AMAZING for my attitude! I feel like a supermodel every time I am with him and in his eyes, I am the only one who is ever in the room...even in a crowd. He is absolutely smitten with me and I am every bit as smitten with him! God...it feels so good to feel 16 again! However, I did get scolded last night by my friend, Berta for text messaging him too much during girls night out. She actually yelled at me and told me to "stop acting like a teenager!" I have no intention of stopping...Who knows what will happen, but for now, I am doing my best to stay in the moment. Scott has a way of ripping me back to the present whenever I get ahead of myself. I feel completely at peace when he is around and wraps his huge, tattooed arms around me...like nothing bad could ever happen! AHHHHHHH!
Scott and I have all sorts of great plans this summer. He is such a planner, like me (Myers-Briggs "J") that we even lay in bed naked and made a list (yes...a list!) of everything we want to do together. How super hot is that! Ha. So this summer, we are going to Riverton in July, Park City in August, and Puerto Vallarta in November (maybe San Diego in Sept???). And in between, lots of little day trips here and there when I don't have the kids.
And there is my biggest challenge...learning to accept that my kids will not be with me 100% of the time. I have many feelings about being a single mom...anger at Bryan, quilt when they are not with me, frustration when I am alone with them. This too, I hope, will work itself out and I guess I might be dealing with these feelings forever.
Final interesting item...Melissa say McDreamy in Wyoming last weekend at his brother's wedding. He asked about me, I guess, and Melissa launched into this thing about me having a boyfriend. According to Melissa, Joshua got a little jealous acting and immediately asked "Well, what does this guy do???" And then added..."I am moving to Denver." He then proceeded to hook up with some 20-year-old. Is he a dog or what? I have to admit, I would love if he did feel a bit of jealousy and I also have to admit that if I actually ever saw him in Denver, I would probably swoon a little. But, I wrote him an e-mail last month (I think I just had to test the waters with that one last time) and when he responded, the only thing that went through my mind was "he is SO BORRRRING!" So funny how what you think you want is not sometimes what you really need. I will always be in debt to Joshua for making me feel amazing when I needed it most. I reiterated this to him in my e-mail...how much I appreciate him for that. He doesn't respond when I say those things. I think he is a bit emotionally immature.
Guess that is it. My kids are in Oregon with Bryan's mom this week and I have to admit that I am enjoying the break and trying to settle into my new job. Scott and I are going to this amazing bed and breakfast in Evergreen on Friday night, so I look forward to that. I am surprising him with this whole romance package...cozy cottage with a fireplace, rose pedals on the bed, champagne, strawberries, chocolate, and a smokin hot babe!!! I am going all out. It feels great to do something for someone who actually does things for me too!
I love you guys and think about you often!
Shelby

I'm guilty of abandoning the blog!

OK, so I have to confess that I have been remiss in visiting and posting on the blog. It hit me 1/2 way through work today that we're past our "20th" of the month mark and that the pants should be on their way to New Jersey (then I realized that I hadn't logged onto the blog for far to long). So, I, Elizabeth Kaufman, recommit myself to my fellow traveling pants gals and the blog, and I promise not be so absent. Been thinking of you all, can't believe I sat only yards away from Court yesterday at the Padres Game and didn't even know she was there! Congrats on the job Shelby, hope to steal a few minutes away this week to call and catch up. Until next time :)

I AM the Queen of the World!!!

Maybe the Magic IS With Me???

Hello ladies,

It it just a coincidence that I got a job while the pants are in my possession??? I think not! I will be working for the state with College in Colorado (check out the website...www.collegeincolorado.org). I will be coordinating outreach to school counselors across the state, informing and training them on our website, etc. I think it will be a great job. They even are paying me pretty well.
You would think I would be ecstatic, but yesterday, I completely lost it. I think all of the loss I have been experiencing just piled up on me and I spent most of the day bursting into tears. You name it...I have lost it recently...my mom, my life as I thought it would always be...my marriage...now my job I have had for 7 years (and all of the amazing support that goes with that)...my brother and dad are no longer speaking...my dog has gone blind in the past month...and on Saturday, Bryan will be taking my couch! Ha. Ok...maybe I don't really LOVE the couch, but I am just craving stability and a lack of change. I used to handle change great, but I don't seem to be handling it so well these days. (Does all of this sound like a country song?)
Basically, I think I have been stuffing so many emotions over the course of the past year that they all seemed to come pouring out yesterday. And who was around to put his arms around me...tell me I am great and that everything will be ok??? You guessed it...Scott. He is proving himself to be an amazing, caring, loving, kind man. I feel really lucky to have him. Not sure how long this will last, but for now...he is exactly what I need.

Anxiety abounds.....

We are all therapists right?? So, why is it that when anxiety stares you in the face, you have no idea how to handle it? OK so maybe I do know how to handle it with an actual client, but when the client is your husband who does not really want to be your client, what is a gal to do? Other than normalize & validate? Of course we all know that this is not the answer. Suggest medication? (I actually tried this tonight & he said he might be up for it-hmmm.) I feel a bit stuck gals & need some guidance. Of course anxiety is all a part of our lives, but I tell you it is kicking Brian's butt right now. He is so stressed beyond belief that he can't snap out of it. Of course he is swamped with work, is closing up one factory & moving the business to our home garage, he is training a new guy, "babysitting" the sander guy, dealing with an artist who is beyond depressed & intermittently gets a visit from a Bipolar friend who is not taking his meds & has tried to commit suicide twice. Can you blame the guy for being anxious? Not to mention that he is so busy, does not have a moment to himself, feels guilty that he is not spending quality time with Emily. Of course, we are off to North Carolina for the weekend & I am really hoping that this escape will be just what he needs. My "talk therapy" isn't all that productive these days, although he is listening & is not argumentative or defensive so that is a good sign. I am hoping that he will be able to actually relax for a day or 2, but I am fearful that he might be so worried about the work that he is not doing that he won't be able to enjoy himself. I suppose I could pump him full of cocktails? Turning to the bottle is always an option right? (Did I really just type that for the world to see?-all in good fun of course-). Well, the Stanley Cup is on right now, so that is always good medicine for him.

I am certain he will snap out of it. Maybe he can wear the Pants when they come around next month? Oh wait, I think that is against the rules. Perhaps I will just wear them a lot around him so the good luck rubs off on him. OK I feel better now that I discussed my woes. Thanks for listening gals.....
Until next time-