More Deep Thoughts From the Keeper of the Pants

I keep checking everyday for a new "blog" (I love that word!) and since no one else is writing, I guess I will have to. This has become my healing journal for all the world to see!
I was thinking today about grieving. How strange it is that everyone who grieves the loss of anything seems to go through very predictable stages (even if not in a predictable order or common resolution...I think some people get "stuck")...shock/denial, depression, bargaining, acceptance. Does anyone else find that amazing??? I have always learned about the stages in school, but I don't think I had the life experience to consider how profound this all is.
It is a human experience that everyone shares, as we have, or will, all grieve. Without even really knowing "how" to do it, our souls seem to transform themselves through this process and we are never the same. Nobody teaches us how to go through this process, so how is it that we all just seem to do it? Human beings are amazing that way. We all seem to have this desire and drive to pursue happiness. (Did anyone see that movie??? Great thoughts about our founding fathers and their choice of the word "pursuit". I guess it implies we are always striving for happiness, but may never fully achieve it??? Or maybe it is human nature to keep pursuing growth through love and connection with others???).
I suddenly find myself in this new "stage" of possibilities. I am certain it has everything to do with the pants (which really has become a medifore for something else...something bigger and intangible). I don't spend my time thinking about how to "fix" my marriage anymore, rather, what do I want to do with my life and how do I want to be in the world? So much possibility can come from pain.
So I continue my own little "pursuit of happiness" and wonder where I will end up. And all along, I carry my mother with me. It really is true that those we love never truly leave us. They really are a part of us forever. She has become a silent force that guides me.
I hope in the near future I have something more amusing to share with you, my friends! The adventure in the pants continues...
P.S. Where are my other bloggers??? I know Court is off to Vegas again tomorrow! Maybe she will be lucky enough to run into McDreamy???